How did I know I was bisexual

How did I know I was bi. Well sit back and let me tell you a story.

I used to serve in the Australian Army in Infantry, which is rather homophobic, so to realise I was bisexual didn't happen over night.

When I was 25 I meet a girlfriend who loved anal sex. She couldn't get enough of it. However she also wanted to fuck me as well. Which at the time, I was firmly of the belief that my back passage was a one way street and never to be invaded.

Anyway, she persisted and one day handed me a playboy which had an article (i know, an article in playboy, yeah sure) which was about men who where raped and couldn't handle the fact that while being raped they got an erection or even ejaculated. The article went onto explain the prostate and what happens when its massaged and the effects that can have.

Long story short I eventually was worn down and she started using a vibrator on me, well my orgasms where ten times more intense when something was fucking my arse at the same time as I was coming.

Eventually we broke up and I was masturbating and missing those intense orgasms. So I bought my own vibrator and started using it. Eventually I started to become frustrated as trying to fuck oneself with a vibrator and masturbate at the same time is no small feat.

So I started to think, well why don't I find a guy to fuck me, as I sure looking for woman who will strap one on won't be the most enticing offer as a first date. So I started thinking a guys hard cock would be just as good as a vibrator and therefore its only my social conditioning thats stopping me.

So with that decided I found my first guy online and I go to his house. He opens the door and minutes later we are naked. Well fuck me, heres where I really learn that we are ALL NOT similar in size at ALL. This guy had a fucking huge cock that I barely was able to stuff into my mouth. So when it came to him fucking me, that was a no go as my arse had never been stretched to such width.

When I got home I also felt some shame as my social conditioning had been that being gay and having sex with other men was shameful. However being an intelligent male, I soon got over that as whatever two consenting adults want to do with each others body, is their business and is perfectly natural.

So over the years I have come to understand that I am a bottom. I will fuck my partner if we are both versatile, but I won't play the top role alone. I have also come to understand the phycology of being used and the awesome horny feelings of being a slut thats taken and fucked by a large cock and how that can feel. I can really understand how they say we have a feminine side as when Im being fucked I love it and am happy to submit to being the bitch.

I do have to say, social conditioning and denying one self are problems I see when it comes to people accepting their own and others sexuality. Surely as we evolve as a species this is disappear and it won't matter, we will accept people for who they are.

Unfortunately I am married to a woman who I love as the mother of my children who is disgusted when I tried to tell her I was bisexual. Eventually I had to tell her I was joking and was just trying to understand how understanding she was.

I don't let her see this side of myself and at times its frustrating. However I feel the sacrifice is worth it when I raise my kids with two parents in family unit that appears as normal as normal can be.

Embrace who you are and live life to the fullest.