My Cuckold Fantasy

I am not sure were my cuckold fantasy began, coming from rural background growing up was quite tough. Having to learn to go without at times and a real shortage of eligible woman of the same age . I always treated women with the up most respect and was always the guy who would never make a pass at young female even though I was quiet good looking with olive skin and dark complexion . It was left to the more assertive girls to make a move on me. Which I would oblige, even if I did not fancy them , so as not to hurt there feelings. I found that I had a lot of trouble performing because of fear of failing. For this reason I remained a virgin until nearly 18 . I also found I was attracted to older married women . There was a lot of times when I didn't make a move that the girl would just go out with the next guy, so I was just the nice guy who always missed out. I met and married my wife , I love her dearly and as all good husbands do , I do whatever I can to make her dreams come true . In the beginning I was very jealous of her old boyfriends but as the years went on I began to get aroused by the thought of her with another man. Her being attracted to another man and thinking of her enjoying another guy really started to turn me on. I did some research on the Internet on these feelings and learnt that the term for them was cuckold . The thought of my beautiful wife having a sexual relationship with another man for me was a real turn . I loved the thought of getting her ready for a date , helping to make look at her best, bathing her and helping put on her sexy lingerie for her lover. A man that could be better endowed and better in bed than me. All the time staying at home and catching up on her housework and jobs that she does . While she is enjoying another lover from the safety of our marriage . The male orgamism denial was a real turn on and with the help of male chasitiy to make sure that she was in complete control. The thought of going down on her and having sloppy seconds would make it complete .Eventually I confessed my fantasy to her and told her that if she wanted she could have another man anytime it suited. She told me to my disappointment that I was all the man she needed. I tried to talk her around but she was just not interested. She decided we could role play to give me some pleasure as well as tell about some of her exploits with her favourite boy friend. All of this was a huge turn on for me. To date she has been on a couple of overseas holidays on her own but has not met anyone suitable. So for now I am still a cuckold want to be .