Gay lust turns to love

He's riding me, his head back and eyes closed. I run my hands up his chest and around his neck and pull him down to me. I kiss him passionately, my dick is deep in his arse as he pushes back down against it. I slightly push him up and stare at him. I can tell he's loving it I've never fucked him in the years we've been playing.

He opens is eyes and smiles as he keeps sliding up and down my shaft, before he pushes hard against me again, kisses me deeply again, this time his eyes are open, our eyes locked when he say's "Fuck I love you", and kisses me again. I am lost in the moment and declare my love to him, "I love you, I'm yours. I have said it before, but I'll do anything you want me too. I fucken love you too".

We lay there spent, like most play sessons, but this time we are cuddling up, he runs his hand across my belly and grion while I hug him. We kiss and cuddle a little longer than usual. As he gets up, he again looks at me and tells me again "I mean it, I love you". I don't even think, I just kiss him and tell him, " I do too", I start at him, "I love you so much, thank you".
How did I get to this point?

Several years ago, I had been searching on here for a regular fuck buddy. I found a guy slightly older, who lived several streets away. He had looked at my profile, so I checked him out and thought, why not, so I winked. He messaged me immediately and we began chatting. I asked if he'd like to get a coffee tomorrow, he offered for me to come over to his, no pressure, just a coffee.

I felt so nervous, I pulled up a few houses away then walked down on the other side of the road. There was no one about, it was a quiet street and a walked over to his door. I didn't know if I could knock. I then thought to myself, "Fucken get over up yourself, its a coffee". I knocked. We chatted for a while as he made coffee, he was nice and I felt at ease straight away.

Talk soon turned to what I was looking for? I was open, I didn't feel ashamed and told the truth about my journey, my experiences and what I was hoping to achieve. I was always wondering what he was thinking still. It was time to leave, he'd been great. There was definately no pressure, he walked me to the door and simply asked "If you ever feel like talking, let me know, happy to have you over for coffee." I didn't know what to do, he put his hand out, I assume to shake, so I took it, leaned in and gave him a kiss, "Thank you" I was so nervous, but you have been so welcoming. He was a little shocked, "I didn't expect that, I wasn't sure if you'd like me" while experienced, he was netvous too. I put my hand to his cheek and kissed him again, this time with a slightly lingering open mouth, he took the queue and kissed me back. "I'll message you, next time we might start with a kiss, Bye"

I was back a week later, I told him I was looking for more of a boyfriend experience, not the usual blow & goes I had had. As he closed the door, he gave me a kiss and a slight hug, I didn't let go and we were very quickly ripping our cloths off as he lead me to his bed. There was a large wall closet with mirrors, I watched as we sucked each other off and then he fucked me. I loved it. We collapsed onto the bed after we finished. He rolled over and looked at me, "I didn't expect you to want to come back, I thought you were out of my league". I kissed him, thanked him and said, your exactly what I was looking for. Now I know for sure, I would love to come back again.

So we stayed at it, over the years I quickly became his cum slut, a total bottom boy, his toy to use as he likes, and he has, he has shared me with friends, ordered me to do things I never thought I would and even just spend a day cuddling and kissing. There is no wonder I have fallen for him. And I mean it, I'd do (almost) anything for him, thats why I broke my own rule and fucked him. I'd never fucked a guy before, he was my first. So where to from here?